The more I reflect on the last 72 hours, the more I realize how much of a fool I was this past year.
I’m stuck between wanting:
1. A long lasting relationship with my soulmate who supports me and protects me and is my partner and we are completely bad ass together and in love
2. Wanting to have casual sex and rip out the heart of everyone person I meet
3. Being independent and having a loyal dog while I’m married to my career
I was working with my boss last night and he asked me to take a few photos of him. The only thing has asked was “make sure I don’t look fat”. But he is a pretty bulky man….is it wrong to use photoshop to make him look thinner thus him liking my pictures more?
Paramore - Ignorance
Ignorance is your new best friend.
My dads not doing so well.
It seems like when one thing happens a whole flood of shit follows it.
I find myself sitting in my room a lot staring out the window. My roommate has been really sweet at trying to cheer me up and making sure I’ve stayed busy.
I want to be resilient and strong but I feel like I’m just at my breaking point again. I don’t know if I just need a friend to comfort me or to shut the world out for a while. I hate this.